It’s been a while since I’ve sat down and typed about my anxiety and what has been happening. If you want my full story then you can view it here. With university just around the corner and a completed course in health and social care, I can well and truly say things are a lot better. Is this down to my medication or is it me? That is something I am worried about.
I don’t want to rely on antidepressants for the rest of my life and I certainly don’t feel ready to stop taking them anytime soon. I’m currently taking 150mg of Sertraline which has helped massively but then deep down I am thinking ‘is it the placebo effect?’. A month back, I had to up my dosage to 200mg because I was feeling more symptoms of anxiety than usual which I’d put down to the stress of a massive workload. Now, however, I’ve gone back to my usual dosage and am currently having minimal symptoms of anxiety. It’s important to remember that medication doesn’t work 100%. You cannot just pop a pill and expect to feel better instantly. First of all, they take at least two weeks to get into your system fully and work and they don’t make everything better. I still have panic attacks and I get days where I feel like crap but they do help me to live a somewhat normal life and I’m able to do the things I love. For example, travelling.
So, my nursing degree shall be underway very soon as I start at Leeds Beckett University in September. It’s safe to say that I’m scared but also excited to try something new. Yes, I’m prepared for my anxiety to spiral out of control because I’m going to be moving out and settling somewhere out of my comfort zone and the worry of the course in general due to the demand on the NHS, however, I will have some support systems in place. In fact, student finance and universities are so understanding when it comes to mental health.
Eight months into driving lessons is quite a shock, I thought I’d be a quitter to be honest (sorry for the negativity!). I grew up in a family where not a lot of people drove which I guess inspired me and made me want to drive more. Unlike most people, I didn’t have the basic knowledge of a car because I’d never been able to watch so it has taken me longer to learn than other people. My test is looming and I’m praying that parallel parking will not make an appearance (PLEASE!). Talking of manoeuvres, who needs to pull up on the right side of the road, reverse two car lengths and then join the normal side of the road again? Logic.
Throughout university, I’m going to try my best to keep up with the blogging because it’s something that is close to my heart. I’ve been slacking over the past few months purely because I wanted to focus on education but now that is out of the way with, I have a long summer ahead so your girl is back! Lewis and I are off to Greece on the 11th of July and I can’t wait! Yes, there will be lots of pictures and blog posts to make you jealous so make sure you keep checking my Insta (@sugarcoathope)!
I will keep updating you, my loves. Have an amazing day!